Journey

Lesson 102

2012-01-27T09:22:00.001+08:00

Lesson Learnt: Sometimes u just need to smile and accept the fact that is really hard for you to accept. it needs...Time and...Patience.

January so far...

2012-01-21T09:52:00.002+08:00

SokSek

2012-01-13T07:57:00.003+08:00

Hello everyone! (ceh, as if like there's a crowd here)

How was your journey so far in 2012?
Mine...Hmm.. let me see. a smooth start, and unhealthy start i guess.

Registered for a new semester already. and not to mention, i was reluctant to go back to the campus because i was terribly ill:( the worst thing that happened(so far) is to be sick on the last day u'r at home.

i miss my mom's hot lemon tea at times like this. Let's hope for a good start for the new semester!

2012-01-07T22:26:00.000+08:00

Lesson Learnt: Too much of something is not good

2012-01-07T21:36:00.002+08:00

2012-01-06T06:36:00.000+08:00

went through memory lane. how wonderful thing were. not complaining it is not wonderful now, so its true when people said, "we don't appreciate things till its gone"

i may complain, i've spent less time with friends this holiday but on the other hand, i'm really sure i'll miss my family once the class has started, no doubt. Hehe. I may complain, but, no, i don't want. Lets just enjoy things as it is, shall we?

"Ala, kak nan, cuti dah nak habis...! cepatnye masa

takpe kakak, insyaAllah dah spend your time wisely when u help people."

so anyway, yesterday was nawfal first day of school for this year.


when everyone was excited playing outside, he sang the Alif Ba Ta song -__-

Abbas & Elephant

it seems that he was the one who enjoyed being in a kindergarten!

dropped by at a friend's wall, and happened to read his father's shout to my friend,the father sent him this...

"Andaikata awak sedang berjalan menuju satu destinasi. Tiba2 kaki awak tersepak sesuatu, terseliuh dan awak jatuh. Keliling awak ramai orang. Semua pandang aje. Malah ada pula yang ketawakan awak, munkin cara awak 'jatuh' tu agak lucu sikit pada pandangan mata mereka. Awak dipersendakan, awak dengar pula comment2 liar mereka. Apa awak buat? Cepat2 awak bangkit, betul ? Ada awak mengharap bantuan orang lain bantu awak 'berdiri' semula ? Tentu sekali tidak kan ? .. sebab awak tahu awak masih berkemampuan untuk melakukan nya sendiri tanpa perlu raih simpati dari orang lain !! "

breath in, breath out

2012-01-05T10:02:00.002+08:00

Tick Tock Tick Tock! It is thursday already! =(

so many things to do before class starts. as i woke up, there's nobody at home:( the house feels so quiet as the kids are not here. going to miss 'em so muchhh =(

u know what i'm excited about? I've found the Glass painting kit, the paint and liners! and it is still in a good shape! more felt sheets and buttons and beads *melts*

2012-01-04T20:11:00.002+08:00

This, :'(
I'm clickable!:D The Pencil & Eraser

sob

though i felt this time around the job is a lot from previous years, insyaAllah, i do it for you Mama, Ayah, for our family. Sabar tu berat, but its beautiful...may it be the bridge to happiness for our family, now and life hereafter.

2012-01-01T12:22:00.001+08:00

It's 2012!

2012-01-01T10:44:00.001+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

weatherman gonna be away again for like how many weeks?;(

2011-12-23T11:52:00.000+08:00

i have been missing everybody because i think i got all the time now to miss everyone!!!! he he he

should go back to work.

touched

2011-12-23T11:32:00.002+08:00

*y can i save the video?* :(

bangi is never the same without you. i miss you. i miss your laugh. mana la kawan tinggi aku ni. hehehe.

wait for me.

alyn wished me through a video!:O

oh ya, we love to record videos. i miss the moments.makcik2 bising dalam video. hahaha. minah kepoh

2011-12-22T15:22:00.004+08:00

i guess i missed Seksyen 5 too much i dreamt of my old place. a guy passed by my house with a chopper, and apparently he was the most wanted man and a truckloads of police came to the rescue. and -.-, i had to take my acca exam just opposite of my house. at my fiends house, it was the centre. weird!!!

i still remember the good old times there. growing up is not an option.

2011-12-16T00:12:00.002+08:00

exam is over! back home! i'm away with my parents for some work.

i'm 19 (well, almost) and i still go out with my mom and had to buy all the toys at least once a year, hehehe, you feel young ! and i still remember the favourite phrase since small when we go shopping especially at MPH, i'll sort of ask my mom, "is this for us or for the tadika?"

so whats your plan during the holidays? and whats your plan for 2012?

haha. meet my ugliest creation.
by: ME -.-

2011-12-13T01:11:00.002+08:00

paranoia, i dont want to be your best friend anymore at these times. please.

yours truly,

confidence.

on the other side of life,

Hello Hello! look who's bace at home=)

so we made the "tengok la anak ke-6 dia!" joke. hehehe its me!!! hehehe.gonna miss this sister-ly moment so much :( why do you guys have to marry :(

2011-12-10T03:20:00.001+08:00

“Don’t be sad, Allah is with us”

(Source: forthesakeofallah)

2011-12-10T02:03:00.001+08:00

so i heard..
so i heard..
you said it was tremendously fun with the girls!!! emphasized.
so now i have 2nd thought of you. seriously...=.="

its december, its in the exam week, its always like this...there's always something...

like come on?

HAHA

2011-12-07T15:10:00.001+08:00

Freedom 0.5

2011-12-07T14:31:00.001+08:00

whaddup y'all.

like seriously, i had my first ACCA paper yesterday. and...i could not be sure how my results gonna be like! 3 months waiting for the result will be such a longggg time and painful =(

i think for the past one week, it has been my worst part of my life..
i miss home too much, i miss my family like...hmmm....my daily routine is not that awesome now. dah tak ingat dah rupa kedai macam mana. HA HA

waited for mom to come but she was sick till she needs to go to Terengganu for work (sisters were dragged along and i heard they had fun )
waited for dad, but someone hit his car when he was on his way.

banyak betul dugaan.

tak sabar for holiday!
yeay yeay yeay

abbasboy gona turn 1 tomorrow. Ya Allah rindunya budak-budak. everytime i called home, mesti dengar suara-suara budak kecik tuh.

hihi everything happens for a reason. lets just finish this off and have the freedom later on;)

toodles.

2011-12-03T00:42:00.001+08:00

2011-12-03T00:08:00.001+08:00

missing home terribly. ter-sangat sangat sangat lah

i really want to go out. keluar pagar uitm at least -.- please

been singing sheila on 7-jangan takut gelap on rewind. couldnt get the right lines:( i sing it everytime i miss home. everytime i miss nawfal. nawfal remember the song by heart! yes. dia menyanyi before tido bila dia high sebab ter-minum nescafe. aih aih aih.

mama ayah:( kakak rindu.

back to december.

2011-11-28T04:16:00.001+08:00

u were high on happy pills!

2011-11-28T04:06:00.001+08:00

biological clock not working quite right
weird stike at the back of my head.

things getting "funnier"

2011-11-21T19:32:00.001+08:00

final exam in 2 weeks.

ups and down. hmm.

susahnye. u dont know. u just dont know.

smile & cry

2011-11-21T10:45:00.001+08:00

i'll miss these. i'll miss these. definitely.

annoyingly cute

kiddo

nadiasyarafina

hmm

indonesion girl

especially this!

another story, hmm haih... i am bad at keeping things at the right place. i keep on losing things now-.- how baddddddddddddd.

2011-11-16T02:02:00.001+08:00

hello rie. i just miss your long posts. someone's gonna go to kedah for a long time. it must be your first time not sleeping on yr on bed huh.hehe. no bf3, obviously,

"nak balik nak main game" tagline wajib tetap sepanjang zaman.
let see how it goes.

sob.

685. Hajar Mardhiah Arifin

2011-10-30T12:09:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was the Graduation Ceremony for my CAT. sort of a motivation for all of us;) [but still, before going to sleep, haihh, still thinking that i'm too lazy to study for Law]

Rie: EEEE...even CAT dah mcm Degree

when i go looked back through the pictures... i looked at a picture of my parents, and dush, i missed their anniversary this year!!! how could that be HAJAR?!!! i was too busy with things i dont even remember their 32nd anniversary on the 4th October.

Parents came and my sister joined the lunch with her kids. went back home. nothing can beat my bed. seasoned and SUPERB hehe.

HAHA. reminiscence. Back in form 5, and now.

ok should start studying now. toodles big boys and girls!

battlefield vs battledfield

2011-10-29T21:50:00.000+08:00

5 years.

i'm still an option over his games-.-"
come on i miss our hot dog sessionnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn

it's the

2011-10-25T02:03:00.001+08:00

~~Phat Fabes~~

Fat Phase

hehe;)

oh Hector!

2011-10-25T00:28:00.002+08:00

m not a book worm. i could count how many serious-books(not magazine) that i have finally finished reading during my teenage years. really choosy. but this book tells good stories so far;) short chapters, good for a lazybum like me;p

trial exam coming up this thursday.

2011-10-22T09:03:00.002+08:00

reading this quote reminds me of my mom... she always said that FOLLOW YOUR HEART! FOLLOW YOUR INTUITION! thats why she came out with her own brand for her kindergarten,

NALURI

encounter your fear

2011-10-22T09:00:00.002+08:00

hello! i've been updating the blog on weekends only. how much i miss my school time, which i think...i updated my blog like almost everyday! how times flies and we changed!

do you happen to have this phrase in mind, "oh my i'm scared!" or "i couldnt do this or that because i'm not confident"

cuz i do!

i used to put my "fears" into a list on a website but i have forgotten the address. so yeah, back to the topic...

when the last time i updated the list was, my fears were, driving at the roundabout (at that time, i dont even have the guts to go out to the main road because of the roundabout, p/s:my residential area has a few roundabout for me to go out to the mall and all), use the KTM (commuter) to Wangsa Maju, i couldnt remember it more. hehe. but.... my point is... i've tried to overcome it! i've drove to the roundabouts already, i've been to Wangsa Maju/Shah Alam already by train, alone... you know, SATISFACTION! this could be small for you, but, for me, it need a "something" to make it happen.

you could be afraid of anything! you could be afraid of trying new style for yourclothes, afraid of ordering food from the waiter(this refers to Izhar Ishak:D), afraid of wearing an off color cimbination for your clothing, afraid of trying to do new things, you know, it could be anything. u just neeed one push !:D your life will be a lot more exciting!

and now...i'm afraid of my exam! exam coming up next week, trial exam to be exact, been busy with things, but it shouldnt be the reason of not excelling. i just CAN do it! we CAN, in Allah's willing... Ganbatte everyone.

got mydaily dose of motivational quotes from tumblr..and i'm off tothe library:)

oh yeah, i have never like going to the library, never, never in my life, lets giv it a try!!!

Love,
Hajar Mardhiah Arifin &hearts;

2011-10-16T21:28:00.000+08:00

one thing that i can't tolerate is...
when people let down my hope

anything. in any perspective.

sob sob T__T

p/s: i just want to curl up in my bed, but, hey, Life has to go on! ;( still...

2011-10-15T23:28:00.001+08:00

2011-10-15T00:41:00.001+08:00

because there's one time you'll get cobfused with yourself.

HELP ME!

2011-10-08T11:13:00.002+08:00

trying so hard to just ignore.this is so yesterday, Hajar. you are a big girl now. come on. Focus. be professional.

2011-10-08T11:11:00.004+08:00

it had been a fun and crazy week. and and hectic. room mates & friends never fail to make me smile at the end of the day. can u imagine it :) hehe.

not going back this weekend. i miss mom especially. and i miss the time that i share my stories to my parents.
confirm ayah cakap i have lots of things to share when i get home. ok enough. before i get too emotional with it.

big bro came home with his wife last three weeks and flew off back a week ago. sent him off and macam dah x nk lepas the goodbye hug!

record! i drove mama to Melawati from Bangi:) a big big achievement for me. though i think i almost hit something heheh.

&hearts;

2011-10-01T23:52:00.002+08:00

after quite some time...i miss sewing. really miss it. gotta get all my sewing equipment back in one place.

2011-09-26T07:54:00.001+08:00

finally...
deleted ancient text messages which was in my phone.
hehe

2011-09-24T00:41:00.001+08:00

beed to take supplements so that i can have a productive time in class. almost fell asleep in class like everytime now. i'm worried sick about my attitude. hehe. this is so not cool. malu okay tertidur tidur...dah mcm pemalas-.-

what's up

2011-09-24T00:30:00.002+08:00

dear best friend went to Manchester last week, really wana study abroad too!

and...
this is what i have been up to
APAcS committee 2011/2012 :)

a story behind this picture: Husnul, the girl in white kurung and yellow scard stood beside me, then, before the picture was snapped, a lecturer asked her to switch place, to stand next to faiz, i was like, "ni mesti sebab aku pendek and nanti tak balance tinggi rendah " and when i got home and checked out this photo, that must be the right reason huh! heheh.

2011-09-15T01:52:00.002+08:00

i kinda miss the feeling of wearing my retainer. yup. its broken. currently waiting for a new one. i went to the dentist for the procedures. kinda excited because i kind of get the chance to learn more bout my teeth. hehe . k obsessed much -.-

so yeah, whats new? been terribly busy this week. everything seems to fall in this week. Delloitte Tax Challenge was one of it. Participated Team Category with 3 of my friends. was an eye opener for me, it seems hard at first, but we manage to write a report about it, but the result is not out. i don't expect much on it, but I'm thankful that i got the chance to participate and get the taste of it. =)

someone turned a year older last Tuesday :) didn't get the chance to go for the small celebration=( too bad.

i miss to be home. it has been a week plus i didnt go home. parents has been calling everyday, since there's nobody home with then except my lil sister. it must be awkward for them, when the house usually is full with people, but during the working days, the house is sort of empty. maybe i will feel the same when i get older and my children also has their own family. hihi. PLANNING!:D

2011-09-12T02:11:00.002+08:00

currently in the Study Room in my hostel. Bravo! for the first time... i stayed here even its already midnite. love the environment now, as theres nobody except me & my other room mates.

how life? Tax Competition, homeworks, but still manage to spend some time to ease my mind=D

mayday; camera broken into two. HAHA. seriously damaged-.- too reckless.

2011-09-07T01:33:00.002+08:00

so now i got the taste of being an ACCA student. scored not so good for the test and it was a wake up call for me.

"CAT is a Cat, ACCA is tiger!"
hehehe

hello amiera azlyn...i just wish i could spend the last days with you while u are still here!!!!

2011-09-04T21:34:00.002+08:00

Ramadhan has gone for this time around. here it comes... Salam Aidilfitri to all muslims.

went back to my hometown this year. since both of my parents are kelantanese, as my dad were saying, we either go back to Kota Bharu or Kota Bharu. was a great memory this year. bittersweet Raya i supposed.

seeing 1001 attitudes of grown ups that we couldn't understand.

hebatnye kuasa Allah, when we were badly critisized,directly on my face! zikrullah penguat kita. may Allah show you the way...

just arrived home today, glad to be home. missing hometown so deeply now. may i have the chance to meet my grandparents again...

oh ramadhan.

2011-08-27T00:12:00.001+08:00

the time when u miss your close friends...
hmm...

baby purple

2011-08-25T00:59:00.003+08:00

me.
being productive tonight.

hehe

mayday mayday.

a week ago, my retainer somehow...was broken...in some weird ways. at the very final stage of fixing the position of my teeth. RIGHT TIMING-.- so not.

i have to wait until next month for the next pocedure, which, i need to go through the same procedure from the beginning! at first, i felt a lil bit weird going out without wearing it, sense of insecured, but, not, heh, i have to adjust myself.

insyaAllah...this is the best for me, planned by Him.

Hadiah Ramadhan

2011-08-25T00:43:00.003+08:00

i have this one unique term this Ramadhan..

i bought a new baju kurung few weeks ago, and i said, "Baju Ramadhan",
and if i treat my friend, i said, "Hadiah Ramadhan"

and so...

i have already passed my CAT examination, all papers, its one of my "Hadiah Ramadhan" too :)

awesome! Alhamdulillah:)

2011-08-21T09:17:00.002+08:00

good morning world!

nice song in the morning

Radiohead- High & Dry

going to enjoy my day with my sisters and their kids and my mom:) @home

2011-08-06T23:07:00.002+08:00

well hello hye.

it has been a while yeah?

alhamdulillah. Life is good. with family, friends, college and all.

i'm glad that Allah gives me such a wonderful life. even its not perfect, i'm happy:) have you ever came across your mind if your life is so perfect? your life is so perfect that you have everything and don't have anything to ask more. for me...maybe i would be a person with no target, no spirit and sense of trying to reach something...

alhamdulillah i got the chance to meet this ramadhan. may it be a Special one for everybody:)

2011-07-05T14:16:00.000+08:00

stubborn.

once in a while.

the end of something, and the beginning for something

2011-06-18T11:48:00.002+08:00

well, semester 2 has just ended on Wednesday, with T10 as the last paper.
what a RELIEVED! and not to mention i've been sleeping most of the time.

i had my final exam ended on Last wednesday. what can i say? as a whole, i don't have any idea my marks will be like, for all papers!

semester 2 as a whole was a GREAT Semester! i had fun with friends. i know the meaning of how hard to earn money. i get involved in Chronicles Editorial team. my course annual magazine. its also and eye opener for me. i get to do new things. at least i was not bored with same old routine.

i catch a movie yesterday, Green Lantern. Good movie. not that great. had a great time with comic boy.

2011-06-01T23:10:00.001+08:00

this time around...

the exam fever gives me an extraordinary feelings.

STRESSED!

AHAH:D

2011-05-24T14:54:00.000+08:00

miss everyone. ah:(

2011-05-22T09:09:00.002+08:00

had a chat with big sister at home. just a plain one. but it gave me this kind of spirit. "it keeps me going"

the love from our blood flesh. is it what they call? blood flesh. sounds weird. haha

havent seen the little boy nawfal in almost two weeks. but he came yesterday after making me singing the kiddo songs on the telephone fo him, while i'm in the car. i hope people dont say i'm a freako*with a mexican accent* who sings loudly alone in the car. hahaha.

when your 3 years old nephew can give you command, you just cant say no to him, its like,
"o my, u r so bossy and cute" haha.

"kak! ruti jam!"
that was him asking me to make his supper.
toasted bread with jam.

if ammar, he would say , "ammar nak jam panda"
because there's a story book showing the panda eating toasted bread with jam. so there it is, "jam Panda"

and hey big boy in green! we have the same instinct ey?
wore the same color? hehe

2011-05-19T20:12:00.002+08:00

semester 2 Of my CAT course

its not even the final exam day. but i felt i have ruined a few percent of this semester.

i'm at home and it is less than 20 days from final exam. i am searching for strength for me to to study harder! i guess being around my mother is what i needed the most.

lets do it!

2011-05-08T10:57:00.002+08:00

beeen ages i've not logged in to this blogger. WHAT UP Y'ALL! hehe

life is good. last week brother from Uk came back. reunion after few years of not having 7 siblings together.

can't wait to have a holiday actually.

gaining weight. more emotional. lose confidence. i dont know. that is on another part of me.

2011-03-13T14:57:00.002+08:00

i love my family. period.

you know when i have realized that? when i enter college, during my first semester. on the 4th day. my parents was having some work in UK and i keep getting miss calls from this private number. oh god, it was so challenging. couldnt reach them on the normal number.

i let down my first tears in UiTM on the 4th day. "mama bile nak baaaaaaaaalik" hahah i was a total weeper. and i am still. to come to think of it, i already that my mother was coming home that coming saturday. what a loser-.- haha and you know what was my second sentence? "mama, i want new shoes and new basketball's ball" HEHE

ok bye. dad's calling me

my ,mom said, "home, is where the heart is"

2011-03-12T14:49:00.005+08:00

its so nice to be home. yes!
my mom cooked so delicious. i almost died. haha

my dad was talking to my mom while we were stucked in the traffic jam

ayah: Ti, you know i met someone who made me happy this week?
and my mom was giving a "blank" face
Ayah: its "****". he told me "secret"
and i was like, "i thought it was me who made u happy this week?"
hehehe

they are cousins! bestfrens;( hahaha
Rushfa and nawfal
thats the aunty with the niece
;rushfa♥

arriving home, i was like, "NAWFALLL" from outside. and nawfal was like screaming from the window, "KAKAK!!!" isnt that the sweetest?:')
i brought him out to buy rice, but then i went to another shop, he followed my mom to another shop. you know what he said? "o o, Where's kakak going? where she gone" that is just...AMAZING. you know. a 3 years old boy.
i played with him all yesterday night but today he went back to his Grandma's house :(
my sister said, when i was gone to UiTM, nawfal cried and call my name. awww.

latest edition! hahaha
never smile one. we call him prime minister
Abbas!The siblings
Ammar&raihan!
raihan turned 1 yesterday.
she got the prettiest eyes in the world okayyyy!

note to self:

2011-02-27T11:24:00.001+08:00

in case you have unsettled things in your heart

zikrullah.

this is so pretty.
so pretty :)

2011-02-27T11:23:00.002+08:00

hati tak tenang. oh mengapa.

going back to school. yeah. hope everything going to be normal. and i'll fully recover.

2011-02-26T01:22:00.002+08:00

saving money

saving money

i need new Ipanema, some shirt and new black slack.

2011-02-26T01:20:00.001+08:00

sorry! i laughed so hard in front of the computer stalking people's wall on Facebook !

god bless funny people with funny attitude*true form my heart*

MUHEHE

2011-02-25T07:14:00.001+08:00

proudly*sarcasm* saying my holiday is almost over and i stayed at home most of the time because my temperature goes high up, tummy growling, i puked and oh i need to go to the toilet again.

nikmat sihat ♥

2011-02-22T12:34:00.003+08:00

oh anyway, despite all the instability, there's a rainbow.

alhamdulillah. i passed all my Papers, Paper 3,4,5. also the previous paper. unexpectedly.
couldn't ask for more. but, why do i feel empty? YOU NEED TO SPEND MORE TIME ON THE PRAYING MAT! i guess.

the little kids make me go crazy but at the same time happy to the max.

2011-02-22T12:29:00.001+08:00

its a chaos. lots of people. lots of mess.

fever. missing my friends.

i'm helpless.

oh God. give me some strength

2011-02-19T18:28:00.004+08:00

" don't give everything "

and it keeps me going.

i need something good. something new.
a new shoes i guess.

because i'm easily feel touched

2011-02-11T01:12:00.002+08:00

this week, i felt so touched almost everyday when certain people shared their stories or their words their whatever with me. i feel i want to cry. but i didn't.

its not because it is "the time of the month"
just because i feel motivated, boosting and whatever related.

that feeling. is. so. beautiful.
its a bless!

2011-02-08T09:06:00.001+08:00

i miss it when you still care to read.

2011-02-06T12:34:00.003+08:00

holiday is coming to an end.

coming:

something something interview something something ACCA
mid term exam * pulun habis okay, study grant !!!*
a week holiday * i cant wait, oh mah gahhh*
SUKOL (sukan antara kolej), basketball game *if its during my holiday, i'm gona say, tetttt*
result, result, result!

2011-02-06T12:24:00.001+08:00

me love ♥

2011-02-06T09:15:00.001+08:00

2011-02-06T09:10:00.002+08:00

isn't it depressing when your dad sort of discourage what we're doing?
when we talk they ignore.
thats the feeling.

because i don't feel like a stranger even on the first day i was there

2011-02-05T16:34:00.002+08:00

YES. i dont feel like a stranger.
this popular quote " dia ni, relax je, mcm sekolah die"
few of my girls told me this. because i still remember, waiting for my Chemistry teacher outside the lab and i just...i dont know what i did, but when people told me that i was too comfortable being a new girl, i remember that moment.

truth to be told. i dont know how to act to be a new girl, so i acted that way. LOL. plus, you guys were so pleasing !:) still could not forget how diba said Hello to me with her high pitch voice, you just won't forget that. you won't. HEHE:)

2011-02-05T16:24:00.002+08:00

i could be really a pessimist at times when it comes to you. i feel bad about myself. that is what i really need to encounter of. bad reputation.

totally different kind of person. you are north and i am south. and please, make a conclusion.

omg, yucks. hahaha.
i know right. haha

2011-02-04T19:24:00.002+08:00

class gathering. i feel young when we laugh. haha

damn. diet controlling ruined. ate brownies with cheese also with choc chips.
so tempting. cant help it.

it was an awesome meet up with The Curry:)
we are so growing up,but I'm the youngest! :D

2011-02-04T10:33:00.002+08:00

i can say i'm a lil bit relieved when Piqot was online. i had a conversation with her.

she said Hana is in the same building as she is. they are going to move to Jeddah and proceed with whatever process necessary. one thing that touched me, "bunyi pistol macam bunyi mercun, bunyi kereta kebal mcm lori sampah" translated: "the fire shots sounds like firecrackers and the tank sounds like garbage tucks"

this is how you can imagine it.

may the force be with all of you ♥ ♥

put me in their shoe! and i will go :O
but, remember, Allah is always with us, 24/7, each and every sec.

one thing that made me think, i love to sing the Dibo song, Dibo is a cartoon which my nephews watch, the song goes like this, "if you have a wish, say the magic word! Di Di Bo Di Di Bo Di Bo DING!" and Dibo will grant your wish.

hehe, its cute.

but, when we have something we want, something we need, we pray to allah. Doa.
something interesting.

peace yo. i'm a drive out and have a fresh air. they are having open burning just outside my gate!
xx

2011-02-02T22:56:00.002+08:00

had dinner. had dessert. i was thinking about my friends. Macamana lah diorang dekat egypt?

i was thinking about Hana. couldnt stop worrying. huhu. hope she's fine.

i want to hug you! huhu

i know you are strong, stronger than me, you could go through all this. insyaAllah

bangi baby!

2011-02-02T22:38:00.004+08:00

HAI! finally i'm having a four days off!

YEAY! YEAY YEAY!

arrived home just before sunset. home sweet home. i risk my life to be on empty road, the car accelerated till 180km/hour. i could got a heart attack. i still don't understand guys who drive the car like... after all its my brother.

arrived home couldnt feel more excited seeing my mom and my dad. one thing different. nawfal was not there peeking me from the window watching me unload my bags from the car and scream "KAKAK!" no babies at home:( so sad. i mean it. wanna cry:( HA HA. i miss you guys la!

less appetite to eat. the house is lil bit quite. computer seems more interesting than tv. my room is a heaven. i wish i could sleep without having backache tonite! peace yo!

2011-01-30T13:05:00.002+08:00

self monologue. i feel like a script writer who writes with full of emotion. just because when i talk to myself, my brain and heart works simultaneously

Currently reading;
which touched my heart every now and then

"Things break all the time. Day breaks, wave break, voices break. promises break. Hearts Break" - Jodi Picoult

2011-01-29T21:43:00.002+08:00

the retainer keeps my lips dry. or is just because I'm dehydrated.

hello.
i have a good instinct.

If I have the chance to press backspace on what you've did, i would. Well, life doesn't seems to be colourful without challenges, ey?:)

2011-01-28T23:34:00.002+08:00

i want to have a long car ride passing by beautiful places with peaceful and colorful scenery.

I want to go back to a place called Lake District, when u wake up looking at sheeps and green grass. the lake, the thick comforter, super small toilet, caravan, jacket potato, the mountain, the temperature, the people, the super scary road condition; they just complete each other

this is my dream. to go there, just like a kid. i would collect the stones, i would feed the ducks. HEHE. how nice isn't it! after all, now, i wake up and look at the building that i need to go for my lectures. but i love the temperature. its just so cold. makes me want to sleep more :)

why am i writing so dreamy here? hehe. stressed up much?

they say, Imagination is important

oh its nice if i could do something else than studying now.
i miss my felt patches at home! i should bring 'em here.

2011-01-21T23:08:00.002+08:00

A friend of mine, Faritz Johar always tell me something about "faith"

so here i am,

believing in myself...that I can make it:) i will:)

InsyaAllah...

2011-01-21T21:38:00.000+08:00

Put a Smile On:)

2011-01-20T22:42:00.002+08:00

i never thought the second sem is like this. what i meant was...my previous semester was tough too, but do-able. this one is thougher. the first day of learning Taxation already made me feel like , "what were you saying, Puan?" but alhamdulillah, after few tutorials, i made it through.

i just pray that i'm strong enough to make it through.

2011-01-17T18:41:00.002+08:00

so hye again.

I'm in my new room in Seroja College, different building from the one i used to stay from last semester. i miss the previous building. though its kinda old, but its CLEANER and BETTER than the new one.

today...i had my class...and now i have homework to do. dislikes! i dont usually have homework to be done during my previous semester. it's like a new thing for me :( Sob

and my feet need a good massage or i think its would be better if i could sort of sink my feet in a warm water. ahhh... can you feel it?!!! SO NICE!:D

i need a time out! its only the second week...i already need a time out? COME ON HAJAR! you should be STRONGER than this.

i miss this ladies and few more

2011-01-16T09:36:00.001+08:00

sisterhood ♥

2011-01-15T21:45:00.001+08:00

the second semester has started last week

the registration day was so TIRING! the elevator of the "Menara" was BEING SO GOOD it brokes down for the 34567890654th times. so i climbed 9 floor, thank god i don't have to climb to the 14th floor. after i have settled with the registration things, i straight away went back to my room and sleep. Anyway, i have got a place in the hostel. Thank God! my life will be easier this time around=)

Alhamdulillah

in the evening, i went to the dentist for the review of my surgery. They sort of "buka jahitan" of the seams they made a week aho, oh my, i'm not going to do another surgery anymore! but now, the tissue inside my mouth is recovering. kinda interesting though observing it re-healing:)

i got my retainer that day and that day was the first day i got it fixed with it. Its ok, but sometimes i just couldnt stand the pain yo.

i'm trying to live it. the paranoia feelings that made me feel i look weird with the retainer.
i miss my grandparents.

with Love,
Hajar ♥

I'm Gonna Shout :

2011-01-08T18:04:00.002+08:00

HELLO WORLD!

my holiday is going to end in one day and a half! that is totally a bad news! by the way...i feel like shouting to the world...just because...the swelling on my gums/lips are limiting me from talking and laughing like the real me ! HEHE. my sisters told me that I'm like controlling myself. cant wait til it heals 100%

i miss you♥

2011-01-05T20:50:00.002+08:00

i had a small surgery for my lips frenum, its like the tissue under your lips attached to the gums because...i..i..Hehe

proceed...

it was a simple procedure. they injected me at the mouth area...four injections i think...to get my nerves numb. and at that point...i can say to Izhar&Afiq, "my nose is really big this time" HAHA kidding. its the numbness made me feel my lips and nose are bloated. i really hate how simple they like made a "jahit jelujur", i think on my freaking lips that time. haha. i think so, because i could still hear them. i couldn't feel anything but if i could kick the doctor , i would kick and run away. haha. they cut this and that. and DONE! they put something like chewing gum on my gums to stop the bleeding...

and only god knows how i survived to go back home when the drug that keep me feel numb is gone. i feel like...kicking again. haha.

now i'm depending on the Ponstan and keeping my mouth at lowest risk of infection so i need to bring Listerine wherever i go. because...i hate the feeling having the weird bruise in my mouth:O and its a lil bit swollen inside.

now i have to talk less...which feels...TAK COOL LAH! hahaha

2011 so far

2011-01-04T17:21:00.002+08:00

So...Hi 2011! I'm only 18years old and 15 days today...while some of my friends are turning 19 in couple of months or so.

2011 so far...

2011 said hello to me by giving me the pain that only can be felt by us girls. and it kinda suck okay. don't really understand why i don't have it before in the early years, but having it now. so much of being a lil bit older? Accompanied mom getting her stuff. i;m all exhausted when i reached home.
the next day was a memorable memory to have. got to spend some time with the bigger family of my other half. other half. what a word. HAHA. kinda was exciting though, but, this was what people asked me : "Anak siapa ni". because it was like a long lost relative gathering, so they were connecting with each other and i was smiling like "oh i dont know what to say, man", so my tagline for that day was "a friend of...." a friend of....yeah kinda sweet. haha. and he laughed and i told him ... "yea yea i'm the stranger here, right?" he was like... "aha! no:) " met my King and her Mr K. couldn't help but sharing stories like...we always do. sent her back to college because it was just on my way back. it was a 5 hours of meeting new fresh people haha and i was a lil bit blur of what to do. anyway, it was a great day

the aftermath of having so much fun...i had a migraine. damn. i really hope "it" doesn't visits me again! it is so not cool. i accompanied mom to her kindergarten and slept all day. i did not do anything for the whole day but i don't feel boring

so today is Nawfal's first day of going to the kindergarten. since its my mom's place. i accompanied him. with my sister being the centre manager. it was a good thing. funny. how cute he can be socializing with others. rite. and i head home and hit the bed like nobody's business. but...i kinda feel like i'm gona explode today. i feel restless and dont know what to do and ... i just dont have the right mood today!

Cheer me up xx!
peace love !

2-0-1-1

2011-01-01T10:24:00.001+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR! IT's ALREADY 2011!!

whats your resolution mate? is the resolution made for 2010 has been ahieved?
for me...ah-ha...i don't really remember making a specific formal resolution. maybe just some on-going regular resolution:)

2010-12-31T23:14:00.002+08:00

while everyone are having a night out waiting for the countdown for the end of 2010 and the beginning of the new 2011...me myself and the ladies in my house are having a lovey dovey session.

we watched family photos, family videos and the best part is...my mom accidentally knocked my face until i cry while i laugh. hahaha!

actually..i want to go out! TAKE ME!

been dreaming a lot

2010-12-30T18:39:00.000+08:00

Love from EGYPT

2010-12-28T10:45:00.004+08:00

Thanks to Mr...
video call to egypt from Malaysia was never been that real to me! the eye contact we made, oh i feel she's next to me.

had my first video call to my dearest bestfriend, err, after 3 months she's been there. lame is it? cuz it was my first time having video call with her? blame my busyness with college and all. haha.

my mama sort of checking me in the room and she was...

Ma: Kakak buat apa?
Me:tengah skype dengan Hana, egypt
Ma:eh?ala...comelnye.comelnye die *smiling so wide* *waving from far*

my mom is a cutie hahaha. tengoklah anak dia. ok thank you haha.

can't wait for you to be home !:D sleepovah!

back then and now

2010-12-27T17:32:00.003+08:00

when i was little, i always need to share my birthday celebration with my lil sister. no big deals anyway, haha.
[when i turned 5]
and now, haha, i shared my birthday with my nephew. how things goes around:)
[turned 18]

lepas ni dah tak larat naik menara SAAS

2010-12-24T21:28:00.002+08:00

HAHA! okay...
i have been eating a lot. of course! the food served at home is like wayyy better compared to the food i bought outside everyday for the past 6 months hehe

and and and

i've been craving for Pizzas, thanks aliyya for scoring 8A's for your PMR, mama treat us with lots of pizzas heheh and i had my favorite carrot cake for my birthday, huhm, delicious,

don't be shocked if you noticed that i've gain weight hahah. and couldnt help but sleep a lot! :D haha

what a "healthy" life :P

busy like a businesswoman!

2010-12-23T22:33:00.002+08:00

businesswoman on the go!

hahaha

this holiday is extremely...
PACKED WITH ACTIVITIES!!

but not yet went for a shopping with my mom:(
thank you Allah my sem start on 11th of january like that

anyway, i've turned 18th on the 21st ! afterall, i've only turned 18th while most of my friends are turning almost 19! alhamdulillahh:)

had a celebration with family and ...:) hehehe. TRON was awesome ! my first impression of Tron was "Tronn totally suck" hahah! buttt! you made it so awesome! i wana have something like the Grid! Love it!

been so busy helping my parents with their business.

i wana go shopping:( i need money! jom tanam duit! and let it grow! shower it with my love! oh man! bak kata encik azri pauzi , "oh i wish" hehehe. you so... hehe:D

ok now i just feel like i wana sing to the perfect two song. sounds a lil bit corny isnt it?:P

few posts made especially for Me:) on my birthday, thanks loves!

by Azlyn on Sweet Serendipity
by Hana Dalila Hamzah on Just A Dream

it made my day brighter like when the sunshine winks at you:)

i feel like a kid

2010-12-19T22:57:00.001+08:00

yeah i feel like a

KID!

being a kid means... HAPPY

hehe. i got excited playing with the doctor set toys HAHA
played kite with dad, aliyya, and nawfal. kinda relieving though. ^^

went out with my bestie. Cheeza and afiq.. when we said goodbye , i said "sakit dada aku dah doh " (having chest pain) hehe cuz too many funny things that made me laugh. haha. i met them last before i entered university i guess. that was long time ago. it was Fun Fun Fun. it would b more exciting of we could go to our favourite spot, not Pavilion, not KLCC. but... Jusco Wangsa Maju. haha. we so not up to date huh? we love it cuz we could shop a lot! haha.

cheeza being so nice bought me a bag as a advanced birthday present. what bag again? its a elephant shaped bag! nice, she bought me Eli (elephant plush toy) back when i turned 15(i guess i was 15 at that time) , now she bought me Eli Bag. now i got to put name to it. hehe. it was a great 4 hours. though it was a short time to spend with her.

thanks loves :)

2010-12-18T23:13:00.001+08:00

when he said i'm annoying, he mean it.

HAHA. so i should control myself when i'm hyperrr

like zzz >.<