I portrayed my dream of my life beautifully when I was cracking my head learning finance.

What to achieve.

Determination. 

Yes. We can.  Biidznillah. Dengan izin Allah.

Forgive me

Forgive me, dear self. I am still figuring out how to be strong on my own feet, on my stand.

That day I stood up strong,  now I fell on the ground because of my own hands.

One day.

I will find myself. And hold it tightly.
And will never go back to the past.

Just to the future.

But...
Nothing could happen without the Mercy of Allah.

Everything happens because of His mercy.

Everyone struggle.  Struggle to be better. Struggle with ourselves.

Just like the north and south pole of the magnet.

Wanted to post as little status as .... Allah knows best and segala kekuatan dari Allah. 

Teringat kata kata seorang ni. Bila kita nak express benda kita express kat twitter or kita secretly talk to Allah?

Allahu.

Teruji.

Habluminallah wa hambluminannas.

May Allah guide us all.

Homesick kali sejuta. Nak balik Wimbledon. *hentak kaki*

Where is the love

For one moment, I wish I am studying medicine, at least i could treat those who are in pain in Syria, Egypt, and Palestine. 

My heart cried looking at their pain. Looking at the devil acts by the heartless human. 

Why? Why is this happening oh dear smartypants. 

Forgive us ya Allah. 

confused on what we could do...#

The least we could do now is pray, pray for them, and stop contributing to the body who are in support of this devil. 

Hasbullahu Wani'mal Wakeel. 

Allah is sufficient for us. 

and to Him we Surrender. 

Allahuakbar. He is the Greatest. 

Show us The Light, ya Rabb. 

Past

All of us has gone through the bittersweet of life. Sometimes we wish we could just flush it down the toilet,  and move on with life.

Truth is, life is not that easy. Unless you had a concussion or permanent brain demage, nauzubillah.

Well, let's take it this way, let's just accept it as it is. Let's take it as something that has made us today. Even if someone else's brought back the story, we could just be cool about it and smile.

Thinking, yeah, it's in the past, and I'm okay with it. Without having a hard time wishing it never happened. Or wishing we were wiser, back then.

It's okay, things are alright and it will be better.

Well oh well, life is an ongoing learning process. We need just be open to accept our mistakes and be wise enough to notice our mistakes.

Love yourself. Xoxo.

Syawal di Perantauan

Assalamualaikum

ALhamdulillah it has been more than a week we celebrated our victory after fasting for a month in the Holy month of Ramadhan. 

For the first time, ever, i am celebrating not with my parents, celebrating thousands of miles away from home. Indeed it is an exciting experience to celebrate it with new people. 

Oh and the best part is...I have the chance (after at least 5 years) this time to celebrate this Syawal with my eldest brother and celebrated for the first time with Sister in law. 

They made pelita. :')

Cooked together with sister the night before, oh and, in UK they announce quite late about when is the eid, like after Asr, usually in Malaysia we could be sure when is our Eid though the announcement has not been made. Cooked Kuzi (kelantan sweet curry) just like what mama would do, Rendang and kuah kacang. I have a new curtain for my rooooom yeay! Its like giving a new life to my room. Psst, actually its my brother's workstation, its my room during the weekends or when I go back to their place. Feeling loved! ♥_♥ #

Went for the Solat Sunat Aidil Fitri in Malaysia Embassy, could see actually how big the population of Malaysians in London. Most of them are working people with their family and Post Grad students. Undergrads student mostly are in Malaysia enjoying 'summer' in Malaysia. Anyway... I didnt go to Ambassador's house for his open house. Perhaps thats a thing that I have missed. But I dont feel that bad. 

Living in London, in such a big city, its hard to be close with the Malaysian community, you can, but its not that easy, we live not so near (cost of living) and London is just so big. All is well. 

Anyway, spent the weekend away from London, drove south down to Portsmouth to ever loving close friends of my brother and sister, spent a moment there, thank God there was Lemang and i felt so close with them already because they have been visiting us for quite some time. continued the journey up North to Coventry for a open house and shoot to Leeds. Basically 3 open houses in a day in a different state (that is not that near to each other) 

Alhamdulillah, stopped by at the last stop for the day, brother's friend who is a medical doctor and he is finishing his PhD. Its just amazing how hardworking some people can be. I mean, he's already a Med. Dr. and he still would do his PhD. Ended our day with ever delicious ayam masak merah and teh tarik terbaik ( i mean reeeeally good and Kak Ira really knows how to cook)

Day 2 in Leeds. Breakfast at Double Dr (in syaa Allah) house and shoot to a carboot sale in York. Its a very calm state. Love the wheat fields along the road. made me missing nestum back at home. And stopped by at factpry outlets and York town centre. I dont know much, but i adore the classic architechture with the castles and Minster Abbey. Ended our day with Gulai Kurutuk with nasik putih and kak ira made kopi kapal api. Malaysian style ;) 

Day 3 in Leeds. Nasi Lemak, again at their house and had a tour around University of Leeds, where they study, its a very nice place to study. Mixture of old and new modern buildings, with wild cherries, with gigantic pillars library, i just love it. Probably because I am just studying in a college which is in a city of London and that means its just a block of classes, with no compound. Ended our tour by visiting this Malaysian family in Leeds, Kak Amy and Abg Man whom served us with delicious roasted chicken ( now I am hungry :( ) They are so nice. Random people who are so welcoming. 

Alhamdulillah, to every stop, in syaa Allah have learnt valuable lesson, 

to see how they survived in this country, to earn extra money, how they see things differently, how they correct other people's view. 

Alhamdulillah. 

P/s: 5 months, and the home sick feeling kicking in.

 

You know its ............ when...

"Panjang nya luahan perasaan (problem)"
     "Dont say anything, just read"

:)

Power

Assalamualaikum.

Its fun to attend the iftar jamaie eith malaysian communities.. to expand our contacts add menaning to life and enjoy the togetherness. ..especially enjoy the togtherness of celebrating this Holy month.

I overheard aunties sharing their stories... how they couldn't make it to perform their Hajj and all... but she said... " I see things differently, its okay "

It would be more awesome if I have learnt to accept things as what has been planned and see things differently.

See things differently,  be positive, is a must for everybody.

For a better life, healthier mind....♥

Everyone is down with fever at my place :(

Homesick level 99 perhaps? Hehe

Having my first fever after 4 months I am here.

And its Ramadhan :(

Lord have mercy on us...

Every single word he says...

Dashboard confessional

Assalamualaikum :)

As much as i don't want my blog to be personal...I still can't help it but to write it here. -.-'

So I had my first day of school today. Semester 5 of ACCA. My fourth month in the UK. First class in this holy month. Tested. Again. To be approved by 'SIRIM'. QC perhaps. Heh Heh

Probably because i didnt have enough rest. Didn't have enough sleep to begin with. only slept for 3 hours and went to class. Perhaps need to just come on time, not one hour earlier anymore.

UK is currently having its most driest season in the past few weeks. Hence, it was...too dry(again) and...hot...and how I wish the air conditioner is as cool what we have in Malaysia! Sorry David:( I love the way you teach and your jokes and your endless stories about your wife...but i just can't help it.

25 Acres of Lavenders. Allahuakbar

Hidup orang bujang ;/ Yogurt weight watchers?:o hahaha... Healthy sangat duduk UK -.-' 

Now i am missing Malaysia.

Never felt this bad! This is just a test. Try harder. Yes. Yes. Yes.

On the other hand...felt like crying wishing for rain...walked home...and there was droplets of water... couldn't be more thankful. Isn't God the sweetest?!

Dugaan 14th day of Ramadhan. May it be the thing that could purify us...Ameen.

Cloud 9

Feeling too happy.

Cuz I am back at bro house from the place I rent.

Gotta teach myself to be independent and love to be there(the place I rent)

Haha just...I think the food at home is super nice.

Though I just sleep on a mattress.

But...I just had fried fish and lamb stew :/ just like mama would make! "Kakak, mama goreng ikan mcm mana..." hehe, just enjoying my last bits of holiday.

Went to the market with friends....gals and scarves and dresses and whatever... but it was cheap;/

P/s: layered cheese brownies I made. Inspired by Vienna cheese brownies at Secret recipe.

Siapa yang tidak adil

I find this really interesting and it is such a waste if I dont share it...

"Sabar untuk kita berlaku taat sebentar, kerna setelah apa dosa maksiat yang telah kita lakukan sebelum ini"

Tertusuk, right in the middle if the heart.

Yes. Sebab saya rasa untuk beribadah itu nampak dan rasa berat untuk hati kita. Yang... banyak murka dengan perintahNya. Kenapa?

Sebab buat dosa tu lagi senang. Sebab comforter tu lagi best dari  pergi ambil wudhuk kena jalan pegi sinki. (Now I have a sink in my room, its too awesome, I cant feel lazy anymore to brush my teeth)

Sebab...sebenarnya kan...baju jarang and cantik and baju kecik tu kan...actually...cheaper than baju untuk menutup kehormatan kita (its trueeee)

Sebab pakai handsocks socks inner whatever extra stuffs could be a burden sometimes, no more air flowing:( tapi... tahu tak.... on another part of the benefit other than just to protect ourself and as a form of ibadah, kulit kita protected too! No more cracked heels or kaki berdaki;)

And and and....

Cuci mata lagiii... best dari "lower your gaze for better days" (its summer)

Sabar lah. Sabar. Sebab janji Allah itu...sgt sgt lah. Pasti.

Yes. Kita pernah buat salah dan akan buat lagi sebab kita ni pelupa.

Kita tahu sang Pencipta itu lebih penyayang dari ibu kita sendiri.

Sebab Dia maha pengampun, Maha Mengasihani, Maha penyayang. 

Moga Allah memberi kekuatan buat kita semua.

This reminder is especially for myself. And all. :)

Ramadhan Mubarak. Ramadhan phase 2.

Truly, it is a month full with blessings.

Alhamdulillah all praise to Allah we are here on the 7th day of Ramadhan.

First time Celebrating this holy month without my parents and my sisters. This time around I am given the opportunity to fast thousands of miles away, in the west, with new friends and most importantly my brother and sister in law whom I haven't celebrate ramadhan togther in almost 10 years.

Looking at it, if people asked me, hows studying abroad, other than the adventures and fun, I am too happy to be given the opportunity to spend my time with my brother,  everyday for the past few months. He studied here and worked here ever since.  To me... its like... killing two birds with one stone.... :)

How's ramadhan so far?
I miss last year's ramadhan bcuz only then I have understood deeper about my religion and out real responsibilities as a muslim. Nahhh. Dont miss things too much. Let's create new memories.

7  days has passed. Fasting for 18 hours is still bearable during the day..its just when at night you really need to struggle to keep you really fresh to perform tarawih and other sunnah. Fajr is at 3ish and maghrib is at 9ish.

I have just discovered that the day is long and it is still not enough. Who knew I complained before... I have nothing much to dooo... now I have my time occupied alhamdulillah.  Its truly a blessing. I think its bcuz of ramadhan. Did an excellent decision to stay here!

Occupied myself with learning how to cook and bake, keep maself busy with unlimited chores, just...go for a walk at the park, do what women do best; shop, increase knowledge, we have so many things to do including get myself some rest cuz we really need to recharge for the night. Now I wish my holiday is not gonna end soon. Registered myself into quran and arabic class. I just learnt that...its not easy to memorize the quran.

Summer holiday has been fantastic so far.

Yeay.

Mission: do things that you wont do in Malaysia.

P/s: moved out to stay with some friends,  back to my family once a while. ♥

Forgiveness and reflection

What a start for my ramadhan.

Taught me to forgive and move on since we are not that pure anyway, Allah has hide away our mistakes.

Taught me not to judge others too much. Though we know them very well. If Allah could forgive His slaves, why shouldn't we forgive others?

They have their ups and downs in piety. Believe...that one day they will change. Yes, I do believe in that.

Because Allah is Great. He gives the guidance to those He chose.

Mirror mirror on the wall

Have you ever stared yourself in the mirror angrily? Reflecting what people has done to you and what you have done to yourself? 

But I know... Allah's mercy is above all. I know there will be a way.

Past is past.

P/s: first day of ramadhan.

You left

Been reading so many news regarding passing of a friend of a friend. Mother of a friend.  Someone related.

Reading those...how would it be when my time comes?

If its my time....

Hold on your tears and lets continue making some kuih keria shall we...

Anyway if its my time...I hope you forgive me Dear Lord, I hope you forgive me dear family and friends. I hope we'll meet again in the Eternal life. Amin

I'm being realistic. 

Every soul shall taste death (Quran)

Tested

When there's obstacles.
Plan cancelled. One less summer holiday excitement. 

Hold your self together....

It can be the thing we dont like, that is actually the best for us and it can be the thing we like is not good for us.

If you are tired of London You are tired of life. Gosh.

Hold on too much to the sweetness of the past that has made today less sweet.

Bad idea you got there.

Cherish today for yesterday has gone and tomorrow is a surprise.

Yes.

Perhaps Afiq was right.

Now I am missing the gang.

Terleka

Terleka dengan urusan dunia.

Terlupa nak muhasabah diri tentang pemergian Arwah Sister Sumaiyah Romli.

Pergi menemui Sang Pencipta semasa sedang bermusafir di Jordan. 

Yang pasti....kita sama sama di London cuma x pernah kenal.

Semoga rohnya dicucuri rahmatNya. 
Dikhabarkan arwah pergi dengan tenang, cantik wajahnya, walau cedera tercampak jauh dari kereta. Indahnya.

Macam mana kita nanti dipanggil pulang kepada Rabb? Didalam kelalaian kealpaan atau...pengkakhiran yang baik...?

Seeds of Change Pt 2

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jxJNpmFhpGw&feature=youtube_gdata_player

The conference began with a quran recitation and followed by the  speech by Br. Abu Hafsah Abdul Malik Clare, a canadian I supposed.

He is a very special guy because Allah has reserved his ability to see until he is in the Paradise.

He promised to electrify us.

Breaking the Barriers -Whats stppping you?

In da'wah, in inviting people to Islam.

1. Our intention?  This is so rational.  Because most of us has the thinking of not doing something because we are afraid that out intention is not pure. But... if there's no action there's no intention.  Perhaps its just the whispers from the iblis. Purify our intention,  seek help from Allah. Dont be scared until there's no action done.

2. Cultural issues.  Some culture don't encourage women to speak out, to share, to do da'wah. Break the barrier.

3. Shyness. Practice,  work within it. Perhaps if we are too shy, we can write our da'wah and remain anonymous. 

4. Knowledge. I am no scholar! You dont need to be one. You just need to keep on learning:)

5. People may not respond to me :( its okay... when there' a 'no', there will be a 'yes'.

He electrified us. He electrified us with His quran recitation.  MashaAllah. Too beautiful. I literally pictured in my mind the mountains, the waterfall. As calm as I am listening to kitaro.

May Allah bless you brother.
And may we use our eyesights in a proper way. Allahu musta'an.

Seeds of Change Pt 1

"There's a polish for rusty things, and the polish for the heart is the remembrance of Allah"

Alhamdulillah All praises due to Allah.... I was given the ease and opportunity to attend the women only conference organized by IERA UK - Seeds of Change, don't just go through life, grow through life.

In syaa Allah I will share the knowledge that I have obtained slowly. By Allah... it was a remarkable day.

It is always good to be brought back to Islam although we were born as a Muslim.

This is the 2nd time for me to attend suh event, its just the approach here was different.  Perhaps because now I am in the west, less Muslim population compared to in Malaysia, so the focus are different here. It's more how to invite people to Islam rather than strengthen our Aqidah and Tawhid as focused in Being Me 2012.

Summer holiday isn't that bad huh though I dont have a plan to go around the world; )

Gonna give you space

Space to breathe....

swim....swim deeper....

but come back to me in a better state, will you?

I wish you know me differently...

Mama kata

Mama kata....
Dalam hidup ni, kena berdikari.
Have your own source of income and learn to be on your own. Dont be too attached or rely 100% on other people, even if you are married.

Bukan nak cakap orang lain tak boleh harap. Tapi...dunia sekarang, terlampau banyak komitmen.

In this modern world, too much things need to be prepared. Things you need to have, things you want to have.

And... perhaps... you just to have your own source of income to give back to our parents and those in needs.

Yes. I'm gonna step outside and realise the things I have planned. May Allah ease.

Missing home. Can't sleep. 

Missing the babies, audrina and his uncle ayie.

Lets just close the eyes and enjoy tomorrow!

Salam sayang dari London.

Jika boleh

If I can go turn back the time and bring all the books I bought to read. Gosh. The books. Should go and buy new stocks of books that can inspire me!

Anyway happy daddy day to my one and only Ayah. I still remember the fights we had....just because I wish I could be a better daughter to mama and ayah. I know this distance would give extra strength to my relationship with mama and ayah.

When I'm away only then I had realized  that you have sacrificed so much. You cooked our favorite dish when u have d time. You would cook lunch before you leave to work. You fetched me from shah alam almost every time and you even came to me although you are on your journey back to bangi. I could count how many times i wrnt back by train. Which is.... less than 5 times?

 I know there would be no daddy would do it for us. In bad times in good times.... we have survived.

Thank you for marrying mama 34 years ago on your first day of university.  Thank you for giving the name Mardhiah. In syaa Allah I will try to be like one.

Mama Ayah...forever will missing you and I cant stop loving you. Wont be the perfect daughter. But in syaa Allah lets try to be better so we can meet again in the Garden of Paradise. 

Much love.
Your daughter that talk non stop like a radio :-D

Shine Bright like Brighton!

Alhamdulillah I have just got back from a day trip with my friend, just an hour from London, a small city called Brighton.

A perfect getaway from the stressful exam period and the busy city, London.

It was so peaceful, lunch by the beach, with Seagulls flying on the sky, the sky was beautiful, it was sunny.

Thank you for making the early days in London awesome and still awesome :)

As what people always says, there's always a first time. Well it was my first time to pray in the middle of the beach. I was afraid, in my mind i was like...what others will think of me when they see me praying? Yeah thare was lots of people there. But I was amazed, "if its the right thing, i wont be afraid" took a long breath and just...cherished the moment. The moment you pray, you could hear the sound of the waves...the see breeze... MashaAllah. Allah is beautiful and He loves beauty. Everything He created is beautiful!

Brighton Pier. My first crazy cup rides and roller coaster ride. Fear conquered!

A dream come true. Flower Halo.

So yeah, it was an amazing first time experience =D
It was an awesome trip. Perhaps because i got things ticked on the list that i want to do and got to spend with the awesome ladies before they go for their Euro trip. Worth every penny :)

Yeay ! Alhamdulillah. Finally after...Almost 3 months struggling with books classes settling down and what not, the exam is now finally over! i can rest for about 2 months ! :D

So the highlight for my three months here :

Went to London Eye with my lawyer Azlyn, and London decided to welcome us with pouring snow! 

Azlyn's taste right now. Gosh you've changed:O I guess as time goes by, this would be one of the things that would made us laugh.

Ehek, My view to class.

Easter Day celebration, Lookie lookie look who's here! My own Hana ! Finally she agreed to transform !:p

Easter Day celebration, Hello lookin good there with ciggies in your eyes.

Went to city of London and experienced my first snow! Snow in almost April, that's weird. 

Tempat bergantung. Tempat menangis, tumpang peluk. Tempat bercerita tak henti henti.

Tempat bergantung versi kedua.

Mama and Ayah came and my life was perfect for a moment. I miss them every second of my life.
Thank God there's a technology called Skype and free internet call.

Oh and Azri has started working though he had few stitches after i left Malaysia. He was thinking how to quit his first job, and fell off the bike. and Surprised by his sister's whatsapp showing his beautiful leg before being stitched. So beautiful. So fresh in my mind. and offered another job, looking forward to a tanner Azri but he's so skinny perhaps going to the gym would be good. Can't remember he's this thin.

Empty

Exam in less than 2 days. I've never felt this empty.

Honestly.
Empty.

Its.awesome.

I promise myself

That I will love myself endlessly ♥

Change.

Change? I guess at this stage of life, at this age, most of us are going through the transition period. Thinking of what should we be.

What is our main goal in life. And we start to make changes. 

Perhaps for some of us, as we decide we need to change? we fall hard, in order for us to fly high up with our beautiful wings.

Is it gonna be smooth?  Some may say there would be challenges. Yes. Take it like the bumps you have to go through before

To me, changing our covers are easier compared to changing our inside.Istiqmah with the way we wear wouldnt be that hard. Its hard. But there's something haaarder. Changing the type of music wouldnt  be that hard. Errrr I do have some loud inappropriate music. Errr.

The biggest challenge is to change the inside of us.

“There is a piece of flesh in the body if it becomes good (reformed) the whole body becomes good but if it gets spoiled, the whole body gets spoiled – and that is the heart.” [Hadith Bukhary]

Its like taking out  our flesh and wash and brush and put powders on it. You know, I'm in the early 20s. I have been living for  20 years.  This internal component is almost permanent. its part of us. And we want to dispose whats bad.

To Change, Requires haaardwork. Don't give up. You may decide to  change and firm on it, and ralizing the next morning you've just did the things you really3 want to stop doing (happens to mee  toooo often). Be mad at yourself for that moment, but never lose hope in His mercy. Ask for strength. 

In the midst of change. Construction in progress. InsyaAllah it will never end. To be His best slave, a good daughter, InsyaAllah one day a good partner to someone, a good mother,  and a good citizen.

Let's put His guidance as our aim. May Allah make ease.

P/s: I'm not good, far from it. But I know the pain of realizing that I'm soaking wet in the sins and did nothing about it. Ignorant fool. Nauzubillah.

Have we forgotten?

"There's no right time, that's the perfect time"

Alhamdulillah. 5 months s has passed since my dad was hospitalized due to a severe heart attack.

I remembered that day being the most confusing day.  Almost the perfect day it was, went for a cycling with my lovely girlfriend,  went back to the hostel and received the news that my dad was admitted to the hospital, treated under red zone, critical zone.

Only God knows how puzzled I was. To cut long story short,  went back home to hospital and met him, and everytime he says.... I love u kakak I'll try to remain cool, up till now.

Went back home accompanied mama. And woke up the next morning mama told me, "didnt we asked Allah for guidance and His light? This is it. Just wait and believe there's something good behind all of these"

Alhamdulillah I can drive confidently, trying my best to cater everyone's need. My sisters' my mother's and my little nieces and nephews.

After days of waiting and everything, Doctor did a thorough check up including the Angiography test - the test to check how many blockage in the heart do my father have. Alhamdulillah, there is some but can be managed through change of lifestyle and medication. 

He was the happiest guy. And we were the luckiest to still have the chance to spend our time wih him.

About the guidance that my mom mentioned.... our life changed. Better. We could have him more, I could see him happier by realizing that he can't work as hard as if he is still 40 years old.

Nothing is perfect but....I am greatful to be given another chance to realize how important our parents are.

And most importantly,  to realize that Allah listen and give the best what He think is the best for us...

"But they plan, and Allah plans. And Allah is the best of planners"

Mat, lu buat aku ter menangis

I watched this video over lunch. And...This video...just...made me...touched that I cried. I've watched this just once, but the part that made me...really think...was...have I ever cared for my friend so much that I really did something rather than just advice when they are in need? Did I really helped and cared and tell them in a correct way or...did i just wanna give them chance to realize by themselves? What if they won't have the chance to realize? 

Till then, there's a lot to share from this video...but that's the biggest impact to me. 

uN

Look back for the sake of self improvement

"Kecuali orang yang berlaku zalim yang kemudian mrngybah (dirinya) dengan kebaikan setelah kejahatan (bertaubat) ; maka sungguh, Aku Maha Pengampun Maha Penyayang"
Surah An Naml : 11

Tears drying, but we are still hating each other

Hello Assalamualaikum. I could see the Sun is starting to shine after few days of hiding away from us.  Now I have realized the bright sunny day is a blessing. :-)

Alhamdulillah

Its pretty stressful and saddening to hear about the problems we have in this world.

A very popular clothing lines, Abercrombie & Fitch, recently has made a statement  that they wont be giving the defect clothes to those who are poor, they infact, would rather burn  it. How sad is that. Lets just put our mind and soul in the shoes of the poor people. For just few seconds. Could you imagine our life just like their life? Wake up.

Just a few days ago, there was a violent attack to a random brits,
killed a young army here. So happen the guy who did it mentioned the phrase Allahuakbar and they brought up the issue of Terrorist=Islam. I want to quote a statement made by a muslim who I have watched recently he was talking about this incident, he said, "If im a vegetarian and I eat a lotttt of hamburgers, it does not make me vegetarian cuz its not what a vegetarian should do". Is the same concept as the case here. The mad man was just crazy mad guy who demonstrated a totally wrong act that was totally opposite to what Islam has taught us. Come on. Muslims this and that. The blacks this and that. After all we are just humans! Be like one.  Spread some love. Spread salam.

My prayers are with those who are oppressed in this crazy world.

O mankind, indeed We have created you from male and female and made you peoples and tribes that you may know one another. Indeed, the most noble of you in the sight of Allah is the most righteous of you. Indeed, Allah is Knowing and Acquainted.

Where's everyone?

I think I am matured enough to tell myself that sometimes people leavr you because Allah has planned it. Because its good. To increase out reliance to Him :) not to other people.

Or sometimes people are not there when you really need them just because...Allah wana highlight the fact he has been here, ALL THE TIME.  Its just who hasn't notice.

Blessed to be given lesson that could open my eyes. Alhamdulillah.

Finals in about 20 days. Need positive vibes.

Just...beautiful

Life is just a Bridge

Just what I've read in Yasmin Mogahed's articles...she has been educating us that this life is just temporary...it is just a bridge for us to cross to get to the Eternal Life. to The Real Life. This life is just a test. Crossing the bridge needs patience, faith, strength, etc. There will be ups and downs... but most importantly...for us to hold to the rope of Allah. To...be the among the best of Slaves...

I really want to write here. I think i cant really write well in my exam practice cuz I havent write anything in my personal blog for a while, this is my field of practice. cuz i need to sit and think what to write. stimulate myself to write.

Anyway. I would like to share the experince here with photos and what not but my Blogger apps in my phone is not working, i cant help myself to sit  and transfer the pictures in my laptop cuz its really time consuming. when u sit in fornt of the laptop...ahha...only God knows suddenly you have so many agendas that pops up in your mind to fulfill using the laptop.

So yeah...Been feeling depressed, oh ya, its exam season nothing new. Normal.

I think I m my own superhero...I pick myself up. Like Hello you need to be your own hero.  yeah, you should pick yourself up. Not forgetting the strength you get is no other from your Lord! "La Hawla Wa La Quwwata Illa Billah'' (There is no power and strength except with Allah Subhanahu wa Ta'ala). Ask from Him. Dont wait for others. because....nobody understand you more like yourself. Go back to Allah. He hears you. Sob to him cry to him.  He is the Most Merciful. he will pick you up! One of my favorite verse.

(7. And He found you unaware and guided you)

 (8. And He found you poor and made you rich) 

Surah Ad Duha 

Wallahua'lam. 

May Allah bless my journey. I want to get as much knowledge that I could. To appreciate what You have given us ya Allah. 

'My Lord, I have wronged myself. Forgive me!'

Why do I leave?

Um wait...Why do I transfer myself here...?

Assalamualaikum.

Here am I, writing in a totally new horizon, Alhamdulillah due to all prayers from all, due to unconditional love from the Creator, I am Here...in London, United Kingdom. 13 hours far from my home sweet home, 7 hours different from home.

I've been always be the baby of the family, well I think, I'm tough, but I've been always near my parents. Never been really far from home.

Sipping the air here, thinking...Why am I here? Why do I have to go...so far...to complete my ACCA? when I can get the same...in UiTM, one hour away from home.

Then I kept on thinking...and God reminds us in a very unique way...I was in class, and I enjoyed seeing other people, different race, different religion, the challenge to make new friends, to actually commute one hour using public transport in a wild and big city just to go to class, and not to mention, lost in a big busy city, yet, I still can laugh and smile, "I've gone through and adventure today!". To come back home, as a better person.

To come here and appreciate what Allah swt created for us, to realize... the world is so beautiful...lets...explore... Not saying that Malaysia is not good enough...it is just...the feelings...are different.

Richmond Park (Deer park)

to jump out my comfort zone, and try...and...explore...take the risk.

May Allah Ease for me....
Lets Finisih ACCA in this one year!

Moved and Return

Moved to a new link before, but couldnt help but to return here... Hehehe