I portrayed my dream of my life beautifully when I was cracking my head learning finance.
What to achieve.
Yes. We can. Biidznillah. Dengan izin Allah.
Forgive me, dear self. I am still figuring out how to be strong on my own feet, on my stand.
That day I stood up strong, now I fell on the ground because of my own hands.
I will find myself. And hold it tightly.
And will never go back to the past.
Just to the future.
Nothing could happen without the Mercy of Allah.
Everything happens because of His mercy.
Everyone struggle. Struggle to be better. Struggle with ourselves.
Just like the north and south pole of the magnet.
Wanted to post as little status as .... Allah knows best and segala kekuatan dari Allah.
Teringat kata kata seorang ni. Bila kita nak express benda kita express kat twitter or kita secretly talk to Allah?
Habluminallah wa hambluminannas.
May Allah guide us all.
Homesick kali sejuta. Nak balik Wimbledon. *hentak kaki*
All of us has gone through the bittersweet of life. Sometimes we wish we could just flush it down the toilet, and move on with life.
Truth is, life is not that easy. Unless you had a concussion or permanent brain demage, nauzubillah.
Well, let's take it this way, let's just accept it as it is. Let's take it as something that has made us today. Even if someone else's brought back the story, we could just be cool about it and smile.
Thinking, yeah, it's in the past, and I'm okay with it. Without having a hard time wishing it never happened. Or wishing we were wiser, back then.
It's okay, things are alright and it will be better.
Well oh well, life is an ongoing learning process. We need just be open to accept our mistakes and be wise enough to notice our mistakes.
Love yourself. Xoxo.
|They made pelita. :')|
Its fun to attend the iftar jamaie eith malaysian communities.. to expand our contacts add menaning to life and enjoy the togetherness. ..especially enjoy the togtherness of celebrating this Holy month.
I overheard aunties sharing their stories... how they couldn't make it to perform their Hajj and all... but she said... " I see things differently, its okay "
It would be more awesome if I have learnt to accept things as what has been planned and see things differently.
See things differently, be positive, is a must for everybody.
For a better life, healthier mind....♥
Everyone is down with fever at my place :(
Homesick level 99 perhaps? Hehe
|25 Acres of Lavenders. Allahuakbar|
|Hidup orang bujang ;/ Yogurt weight watchers?:o hahaha... Healthy sangat duduk UK -.-'|
Feeling too happy.
Cuz I am back at bro house from the place I rent.
Gotta teach myself to be independent and love to be there(the place I rent)
Haha just...I think the food at home is super nice.
Though I just sleep on a mattress.
But...I just had fried fish and lamb stew :/ just like mama would make! "Kakak, mama goreng ikan mcm mana..." hehe, just enjoying my last bits of holiday.
Went to the market with friends....gals and scarves and dresses and whatever... but it was cheap;/
P/s: layered cheese brownies I made. Inspired by Vienna cheese brownies at Secret recipe.
I find this really interesting and it is such a waste if I dont share it...
"Sabar untuk kita berlaku taat sebentar, kerna setelah apa dosa maksiat yang telah kita lakukan sebelum ini"
Tertusuk, right in the middle if the heart.
Yes. Sebab saya rasa untuk beribadah itu nampak dan rasa berat untuk hati kita. Yang... banyak murka dengan perintahNya. Kenapa?
Sebab buat dosa tu lagi senang. Sebab comforter tu lagi best dari pergi ambil wudhuk kena jalan pegi sinki. (Now I have a sink in my room, its too awesome, I cant feel lazy anymore to brush my teeth)
Sebab...sebenarnya kan...baju jarang and cantik and baju kecik tu kan...actually...cheaper than baju untuk menutup kehormatan kita (its trueeee)
Sebab pakai handsocks socks inner whatever extra stuffs could be a burden sometimes, no more air flowing:( tapi... tahu tak.... on another part of the benefit other than just to protect ourself and as a form of ibadah, kulit kita protected too! No more cracked heels or kaki berdaki;)
And and and....
Cuci mata lagiii... best dari "lower your gaze for better days" (its summer)
Sabar lah. Sabar. Sebab janji Allah itu...sgt sgt lah. Pasti.
Yes. Kita pernah buat salah dan akan buat lagi sebab kita ni pelupa.
Kita tahu sang Pencipta itu lebih penyayang dari ibu kita sendiri.
Sebab Dia maha pengampun, Maha Mengasihani, Maha penyayang.
Moga Allah memberi kekuatan buat kita semua.
This reminder is especially for myself. And all. :)
Ramadhan Mubarak. Ramadhan phase 2.
Alhamdulillah all praise to Allah we are here on the 7th day of Ramadhan.
First time Celebrating this holy month without my parents and my sisters. This time around I am given the opportunity to fast thousands of miles away, in the west, with new friends and most importantly my brother and sister in law whom I haven't celebrate ramadhan togther in almost 10 years.
Looking at it, if people asked me, hows studying abroad, other than the adventures and fun, I am too happy to be given the opportunity to spend my time with my brother, everyday for the past few months. He studied here and worked here ever since. To me... its like... killing two birds with one stone.... :)
How's ramadhan so far?
I miss last year's ramadhan bcuz only then I have understood deeper about my religion and out real responsibilities as a muslim. Nahhh. Dont miss things too much. Let's create new memories.
7 days has passed. Fasting for 18 hours is still bearable during the day..its just when at night you really need to struggle to keep you really fresh to perform tarawih and other sunnah. Fajr is at 3ish and maghrib is at 9ish.
I have just discovered that the day is long and it is still not enough. Who knew I complained before... I have nothing much to dooo... now I have my time occupied alhamdulillah. Its truly a blessing. I think its bcuz of ramadhan. Did an excellent decision to stay here!
Occupied myself with learning how to cook and bake, keep maself busy with unlimited chores, just...go for a walk at the park, do what women do best; shop, increase knowledge, we have so many things to do including get myself some rest cuz we really need to recharge for the night. Now I wish my holiday is not gonna end soon. Registered myself into quran and arabic class. I just learnt that...its not easy to memorize the quran.
Summer holiday has been fantastic so far.
Mission: do things that you wont do in Malaysia.
P/s: moved out to stay with some friends, back to my family once a while. ♥
What a start for my ramadhan.
Taught me to forgive and move on since we are not that pure anyway, Allah has hide away our mistakes.
Taught me not to judge others too much. Though we know them very well. If Allah could forgive His slaves, why shouldn't we forgive others?
They have their ups and downs in piety. Believe...that one day they will change. Yes, I do believe in that.
Because Allah is Great. He gives the guidance to those He chose.
Been reading so many news regarding passing of a friend of a friend. Mother of a friend. Someone related.
Reading those...how would it be when my time comes?
If its my time....
Hold on your tears and lets continue making some kuih keria shall we...
Anyway if its my time...I hope you forgive me Dear Lord, I hope you forgive me dear family and friends. I hope we'll meet again in the Eternal life. Amin
I'm being realistic.
Every soul shall taste death (Quran)
When there's obstacles.
Plan cancelled. One less summer holiday excitement.
Hold your self together....
It can be the thing we dont like, that is actually the best for us and it can be the thing we like is not good for us.
If you are tired of London You are tired of life. Gosh.
Terleka dengan urusan dunia.
Terlupa nak muhasabah diri tentang pemergian Arwah Sister Sumaiyah Romli.
Pergi menemui Sang Pencipta semasa sedang bermusafir di Jordan.
Yang pasti....kita sama sama di London cuma x pernah kenal.
Semoga rohnya dicucuri rahmatNya.
Dikhabarkan arwah pergi dengan tenang, cantik wajahnya, walau cedera tercampak jauh dari kereta. Indahnya.
Macam mana kita nanti dipanggil pulang kepada Rabb? Didalam kelalaian kealpaan atau...pengkakhiran yang baik...?
The conference began with a quran recitation and followed by the speech by Br. Abu Hafsah Abdul Malik Clare, a canadian I supposed.
He is a very special guy because Allah has reserved his ability to see until he is in the Paradise.
He promised to electrify us.
Breaking the Barriers -Whats stppping you?
In da'wah, in inviting people to Islam.
1. Our intention? This is so rational. Because most of us has the thinking of not doing something because we are afraid that out intention is not pure. But... if there's no action there's no intention. Perhaps its just the whispers from the iblis. Purify our intention, seek help from Allah. Dont be scared until there's no action done.
2. Cultural issues. Some culture don't encourage women to speak out, to share, to do da'wah. Break the barrier.
3. Shyness. Practice, work within it. Perhaps if we are too shy, we can write our da'wah and remain anonymous.
4. Knowledge. I am no scholar! You dont need to be one. You just need to keep on learning:)
5. People may not respond to me :( its okay... when there' a 'no', there will be a 'yes'.
He electrified us. He electrified us with His quran recitation. MashaAllah. Too beautiful. I literally pictured in my mind the mountains, the waterfall. As calm as I am listening to kitaro.
May Allah bless you brother.
And may we use our eyesights in a proper way. Allahu musta'an.
"There's a polish for rusty things, and the polish for the heart is the remembrance of Allah"
Alhamdulillah All praises due to Allah.... I was given the ease and opportunity to attend the women only conference organized by IERA UK - Seeds of Change, don't just go through life, grow through life.
In syaa Allah I will share the knowledge that I have obtained slowly. By Allah... it was a remarkable day.
It is always good to be brought back to Islam although we were born as a Muslim.
This is the 2nd time for me to attend suh event, its just the approach here was different. Perhaps because now I am in the west, less Muslim population compared to in Malaysia, so the focus are different here. It's more how to invite people to Islam rather than strengthen our Aqidah and Tawhid as focused in Being Me 2012.
Summer holiday isn't that bad huh though I dont have a plan to go around the world; )
Dalam hidup ni, kena berdikari.
Have your own source of income and learn to be on your own. Dont be too attached or rely 100% on other people, even if you are married.
Bukan nak cakap orang lain tak boleh harap. Tapi...dunia sekarang, terlampau banyak komitmen.
In this modern world, too much things need to be prepared. Things you need to have, things you want to have.
And... perhaps... you just to have your own source of income to give back to our parents and those in needs.
Yes. I'm gonna step outside and realise the things I have planned. May Allah ease.
Missing home. Can't sleep.
Missing the babies, audrina and his uncle ayie.
Lets just close the eyes and enjoy tomorrow!
Salam sayang dari London.
If I can go turn back the time and bring all the books I bought to read. Gosh. The books. Should go and buy new stocks of books that can inspire me!
Anyway happy daddy day to my one and only Ayah. I still remember the fights we had....just because I wish I could be a better daughter to mama and ayah. I know this distance would give extra strength to my relationship with mama and ayah.
When I'm away only then I had realized that you have sacrificed so much. You cooked our favorite dish when u have d time. You would cook lunch before you leave to work. You fetched me from shah alam almost every time and you even came to me although you are on your journey back to bangi. I could count how many times i wrnt back by train. Which is.... less than 5 times?
I know there would be no daddy would do it for us. In bad times in good times.... we have survived.
Thank you for marrying mama 34 years ago on your first day of university. Thank you for giving the name Mardhiah. In syaa Allah I will try to be like one.
Mama Ayah...forever will missing you and I cant stop loving you. Wont be the perfect daughter. But in syaa Allah lets try to be better so we can meet again in the Garden of Paradise.
Your daughter that talk non stop like a radio :-D
|Thank you for making the early days in London awesome and still awesome :)|
|Brighton Pier. My first crazy cup rides and roller coaster ride. Fear conquered!|
|A dream come true. Flower Halo.|
|Went to London Eye with my lawyer Azlyn, and London decided to welcome us with pouring snow!|
|Azlyn's taste right now. Gosh you've changed:O I guess as time goes by, this would be one of the things that would made us laugh.|
|Ehek, My view to class.|
|Easter Day celebration, Lookie lookie look who's here! My own Hana ! Finally she agreed to transform !:p|
|Easter Day celebration, Hello lookin good there with ciggies in your eyes.|
|Tempat bergantung. Tempat menangis, tumpang peluk. Tempat bercerita tak henti henti.|
|Tempat bergantung versi kedua.|
Change? I guess at this stage of life, at this age, most of us are going through the transition period. Thinking of what should we be.
What is our main goal in life. And we start to make changes.
Perhaps for some of us, as we decide we need to change? we fall hard, in order for us to fly high up with our beautiful wings.
Is it gonna be smooth? Some may say there would be challenges. Yes. Take it like the bumps you have to go through before
To me, changing our covers are easier compared to changing our inside.Istiqmah with the way we wear wouldnt be that hard. Its hard. But there's something haaarder. Changing the type of music wouldnt be that hard. Errrr I do have some loud inappropriate music. Errr.
The biggest challenge is to change the inside of us.
“There is a piece of flesh in the body if it becomes good (reformed) the whole body becomes good but if it gets spoiled, the whole body gets spoiled – and that is the heart.” [Hadith Bukhary]
Its like taking out our flesh and wash and brush and put powders on it. You know, I'm in the early 20s. I have been living for 20 years. This internal component is almost permanent. its part of us. And we want to dispose whats bad.
To Change, Requires haaardwork. Don't give up. You may decide to change and firm on it, and ralizing the next morning you've just did the things you really3 want to stop doing (happens to mee toooo often). Be mad at yourself for that moment, but never lose hope in His mercy. Ask for strength.
In the midst of change. Construction in progress. InsyaAllah it will never end. To be His best slave, a good daughter, InsyaAllah one day a good partner to someone, a good mother, and a good citizen.
Let's put His guidance as our aim. May Allah make ease.
P/s: I'm not good, far from it. But I know the pain of realizing that I'm soaking wet in the sins and did nothing about it. Ignorant fool. Nauzubillah.
Hello Assalamualaikum. I could see the Sun is starting to shine after few days of hiding away from us. Now I have realized the bright sunny day is a blessing. :-)
Its pretty stressful and saddening to hear about the problems we have in this world.
A very popular clothing lines, Abercrombie & Fitch, recently has made a statement that they wont be giving the defect clothes to those who are poor, they infact, would rather burn it. How sad is that. Lets just put our mind and soul in the shoes of the poor people. For just few seconds. Could you imagine our life just like their life? Wake up.
Just a few days ago, there was a violent attack to a random brits,
killed a young army here. So happen the guy who did it mentioned the phrase Allahuakbar and they brought up the issue of Terrorist=Islam. I want to quote a statement made by a muslim who I have watched recently he was talking about this incident, he said, "If im a vegetarian and I eat a lotttt of hamburgers, it does not make me vegetarian cuz its not what a vegetarian should do". Is the same concept as the case here. The mad man was just crazy mad guy who demonstrated a totally wrong act that was totally opposite to what Islam has taught us. Come on. Muslims this and that. The blacks this and that. After all we are just humans! Be like one. Spread some love. Spread salam.
My prayers are with those who are oppressed in this crazy world.
O mankind, indeed We have created you from male and female and made you peoples and tribes that you may know one another. Indeed, the most noble of you in the sight of Allah is the most righteous of you. Indeed, Allah is Knowing and Acquainted.
I think I am matured enough to tell myself that sometimes people leavr you because Allah has planned it. Because its good. To increase out reliance to Him :) not to other people.
Or sometimes people are not there when you really need them just because...Allah wana highlight the fact he has been here, ALL THE TIME. Its just who hasn't notice.
Blessed to be given lesson that could open my eyes. Alhamdulillah.
Finals in about 20 days. Need positive vibes.
|Richmond Park (Deer park)|